The Becks of Both Worlds

Thursday, May 15, 2014

Kids and Calorie Counting Don't Mix

As many that have read my blog or know me, you know that I've been on a mission to get healthy again. I was thinking that just going to the gym would help. You know, just be more active in general.  And I didn't expect immediate results. In fact, my EDS means that it will probably take longer to see results. But days passed. Then weeks... And now months have passed and I have yet to see actual physical changes. Needless to say, I'm extremely frustrated.

For the last 3 months or so it has been my goal to get to the gym a minimum of 3 times a week. And I've actually been doing it, sometimes even 4 or 5 days. I even ran/walked in a 5k! (Go me!)  But an hour at them gym, plus eating healthier, and smaller portions, I have yet to see a pound lost.  And before I hear someone say "Muscle weighs more than fat!" or "I bet your clothes fit better, though," I'm gonna just vent a smidge. While I feel better and healthier inside, not 1 piece of my clothing fits better. In fact they almost feel tighter. Frustrating, right? And I'm utterly exhausted!

So now I move to phase 3. (Phase 2 was eating better in general and more portion control.) I'm counting calories now. (Gasp!!) And do you realize how hard it is?! It's awful! And it's a few steps harder when you have kids. It becomes difficult to dream of carrots when you have your son's leftover peanut butter and Nutella sandwich winking, nay, dancing, in front of your eyes just begging to be gobbled up. And those little crackers laying around are crying out to be snacked on. And late night ice cream screams from the freezer. (I won't lie... I love food.)

So in the next little while if you come across me and I seem a little cranky or irritable it's probably because I'm just hungry. Hopefully it'll go away, or at least subside soon.

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

It's Spring!!!

I don't know about you, but to me it seemed that it took forever for Spring to arrive. I kept waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting for it to arrive so that we could start enjoying the outdoors more. I've been wanting to let the kids play outside more, and I've been wanting to garden a little. 

But gardening? In an apartment? Yep. I do some small container gardening on our little porch. But I've been wanting to do more than flowers. And it took the kids' desire to plant some veggies for me to finally do something about it. So I created a "portable" raised garden bed. Sounds strange, but I had seen some ideas on Pinterest and decided to do my own take.

 I found these large bins at a tractor supply store. I originally noted those large metal watering troughs, but the price was out of my range. so I settled on this one for half (yes, half) of the price.

I brought it home (after a trip to Lowe's, of course) and I drilled 6 drainage holes in the bottom for drainage.

I filled the bin with 3 bags of lava rocks. I could have gone a different route, but I liked the weight of them. Other types will most likely do, but since we will (hopefully) move someday I wanted it to be lighter. (Although I guess it doesn't matter much as it keeps getting filled.)

I then laid a gardening"mesh" over the rocks. This would prevent any soil from seeping through while allowing the excess water to drain.

And then I filled it with soil. I used about 1 1/2 large bags. Enough to be at least 12" deep soil. Ethnie HAD to have her picture taken with our me "garden". And here you can gauge the size a little more.

I'm looking forward to planting in here. I was hoping to have it started by now, but due to stupid raccoons, and the fact that I hurt my back lifting those massive bags of rocks and soil it's going to have to wait a little bit. But I was sure proud of my accomplishment. :)

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

It's Been a While

Yes I'm aware that it's been over 2 months since I last wrote on here. But you know what? Nothing has really changed, hence the lack of posting. I keep waiting for something to happen to update, and I'll keep waiting. Until then you'll just have to sit tight. Sorry.

Wednesday, January 01, 2014

2014 Begins

Happy New Year
to one and all!!

A new year begins again! Can you believe that it's 2014 already? Now I just have to remember to write a 4 instead of a 3 on checks, papers, etc... Am I the only one that has difficulty with that in a new year? It can't be just me. But it's not just the simple writing of the date that gets me in every new year...

Every year I start with these grandiose resolutions of exercising 3+ times a week, or eating healthy all the time, or organizing everything that there is to organize. and on and on and on...  I'm always a sucker for this trap, and at the end of the year I wind up hating myself for not following through with my overly ambitious desires. Truth be told, I don't really forget about them. They're always in the back of my mind. It's just hard to focus all of that energy on myself when the kids are always needing something, or sick, or want to do something of their own. Now that's  the real trap. So this year I'm not going to fall into it (or least try my darndest).

This year I set the goal to focus on myself a little bit more. I'm going to take the time to improve myself without set limitations. Instead of going to the gym 3+ times a week, I'm just going to exercise however I can whether it be at the gym, at home cleaning, dancing around listening to music with my kids, or some exercise program on the gaming console. No limitations, just moving more. No reading the Book of Mormon in a set amount of days. If I can just open my scriptures, even for just one verse, every day, that'll be better than nothing. I also set a goal to read 20 books this year... Yes I have an actual number this year, but if I don't I won't actually pick out the reads and do it.

I'm going to fall in love with music, dancing, and art again! I'm so busy throwing on a show for the kids during the day and just trying to inch through that I don't focus on what I used to thrive on... What I used to live for! Through help with family this Christmas I was able to get in iPad. It actually has rekindled my desire to doodle and draft again. Just in five minutes pumping out a sketch I felt that love and desire again!

All of this, to me, is self-improvement. Once I can improve myself to a be in a place that I love, the rest will follow around me. And maybe this is all just a flying fancy, but I'm trying to be really determined this year. I need a better year than the last, so I'm going to make it so.

Friday, December 13, 2013


This is my orchid. Trent got it for me on our first anniversary. Almost 8 years later it still lives on. How? I have no clue. But as I was looking at it a thought occurred to me. I am this orchid. 

Its pot is not the nicest. It has long outgrown its warn down home. Sometimes I don't know if it will survive much longer as I see dying roots and leaves falling off. Looking closely, though, you can see a new stem coming out from the newer, greener leaves. Soon it will bloom again. Looking again you can also see many more roots digging deeper. Again I am reminded that I am this orchid. 

My home isn't the nicest. I've long outgrown our apartment. Sometimes I don't know if I'll survive this time in my life much longer. But every now and then I see a glimmer of something new coming. And then I get reminded how deep my roots run in my life- my family, my husband, my testimony in my Savior, Jesus Christ. 

I am this orchid. Sometimes seemingly fragile, but often more resilient than I give myself credit for. 

I am this orchid.